Good day, Bad day what kind of title is that I here you say ? well that's how I start my day, with a simple question. If it happens to be a good day as it was for me last Friday 3/2/2012 I may be able to get out and go down to the local park for a couple of hours birdwatching (weather permitting ) Just being out away from the security that my home offers, is a big step & one once taken I try to make the most of. All the photographs on this & the last Blog were taken last Friday so I really do make the most of my time away from home.
A bad day, well that's a different story, you see it's like a nightmare but your awake, from the moment you open your eye's you feel like something's watching you, I call it my vulture (sorry bird lovers it's just a name).
Wherever I go it comes with me, it sits on my shoulder & keeps me in check don't go out today you might meet someone, stay in there's no need to answer any awkward questions.
Questions Questions QUESTIONS I'm tired of answering questions all day everyday non stop!,- then it "stop's" peace, silence then sleep.
What will tomorrow bring, will my imaginary friend be waiting for me, now that,s a question I CAN'T answer, you see he waits, stay's away for while, let's you build you'r hope's up, start making plans it's like he's sleeping, taking a break the trouble is he doesn't stay away for long," then he's back " questioning you do you think it's safe to be out here. THEY KNOW YOU'R SCARED, ILL, ANXIOUS DEPRESSED they can see it in you'r eyes GO HOME, you'r not safe, go home .
On average I have 4/5 bad days per week, some weeks are worse some are better as yet I have not found a way to control my demon vulture, today he's sleeping but not for long.
If you just read this & are wondering WHY, well the only way that I can explain it is, when I am close to any kind of nature THAT'S when I am at my calmest
Thank you for reading this post, if it has upset you then I am sorry but this is my life?.
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